Happy Ramblings

It's crazy how things change so rapidly. I mean, I was just so happy and giddy when I woke up and now, here I am, feeling the exact opposite of how I felt earlier -- whatever that feeling is, that's how I feel right now. You know how no matter how hard you try, no matter all the efforts you make, you know for sure that one day everything is not going to matter. Those tries and efforts are actually not going to weight as much as whatever the reason behind it all. It breaks my heart that just when I thought I have moved forward already, I'm going to get pushed far far back again. It just sucks because I know that nothing's going to be good enough to turn things around. I hate it. I hate myself for it. And what i hate most is that I know that somebody is hurting even more because of me.  Yes, I am feeling all sh*tty right now, but I also know that feeling like this is not going to take me anywhere good. I will bounce back, I have to; but for now I'm going to a

For the first time in years, I am actually writing  on my blog again. I decided that from now on, I will go back to my first love. I will blog when I'm happy and even when I am not. Abbie, one of my favorite bloggers of all time, said that it's very important to STOP blogging for the readers. And I agree. I know that the reason why I wasn't blogging regularly was because I felt like those things that I wanted to blog weren't good enough. I was so worried about the content. I forgot the main reason why I started my own blog back in 2008 -- to document my life so one day I can look back at it and see how far I've become, so I can share my stories with other bloggers. So, here I am again. Doing my best to be back at blogging not just about places and things, but also about feelings.